Nothing Left but…

You say you love me, you say you care...

Emptiness. That is all that is left when little white lies are told to make someone feel better. The question though is who does this make feel better? It certainly isn’t just the one who the lies are being told to. Everyone has told a white lie in their lifetime and probably in the last week if you really think about it. What bothers me is when those lies build and build until it becomes something that is way out of control. I seem to worry about the white lies more than I should. You know, when you tell someone oh yeah that looks great on you and you just say it because if you told them they looked like crap it would hurt their feelings so you just say something polite. Sounds bad huh? Yeah well this has happened to me a few times. No one decided to tell me the truth which would have been a heck of a lot better in the end. I mean does anyone really want to be lied to? What you may not realize is that your white lie actually does hurt someone…and when they build it ends up being i love you and i wont ever leave you and then BAM next thing you know it was all pointless and your left with nothing.

Nothing left but..

I have been thinking about the nothing portion of this as I have been going out to meet people. I have been given one empty promise or comment after another and I got to thinking does anyone actually mean what they say? For example, I was out again the other night and met a guy who told me I was beautiful and so sweet and blah blah.. didn’t know me at ALL! He then tells me a couple of days later that he met this women who was…. and then he proceeded to give the SAME example of what he thought of her that he did me. I was curious of the wording so I went back to look at chats. Sure enough! Not like I really was worried about this, but I do worry if he does give these lines to some lady who actually believes him. What does a person get out of bring so full of it… I mean really?!?! So, I think this is a good reason for me to hide in the shadows most of the time. It is hard being mostly an introvert and having to force yourself out there when you know things like this happen. Maybe a slight fear for myself. Oh you mean you didn’t know I was really an introvert? Yeah well I prefer to usually be alone and writing like this to me is just like writing a journal for myself. I don’t think too much on who reads it. Anyway, getting way away from my intent of this post. TOOTLES!

Credits:

Skin: Lara Hurley– Scarlett in dark

Head: TheMeshProject– classic deluxe w/ Scarlett applier

Body: Maitreya– Lara Mesh Body w/ Scarlett applier

Eyes: IKON– Sovereign eyes in Fjord

Hair: TRUTH- Gilda @ The Arcade

Tattoo: Reckless- Haze @ Uber

Dress: Entice- Diamond dress in red @ Designer Showcase

Shoes: AnaMarkova- Mya Heels in Onyx @ Designer Showcase

Furniture in first photo:

Couch: Trompe Loeil– Alyce Bench leather white

Rug: REDGRAVE– Jonas Rug

Flowers: keke– paeons and magnolias set pink

What tickles your feet?

What tickles your feet... ermm fancy?

First, I need to inform everyone that Designer Showcase has now moved! You may want to mark that down in your landmarks so that you have the current location. Second, The Arcade is open and is FABULOUS! Good luck getting in but if you want to hit up yard sales you have that option as well. I think I might end up doing both!

On another note, I have planned on starting to describe what I would call encounter disasters. Maybe not all of them are disasters, but they are interesting and I get a kick out of some of the random weird things that are said to me during first hello’s and first dates. I thought about writing about the first date the other night where the guy obsessed over his hair for 2 hours. I think I saw every hair on the grid just standing there watching him change. My eyes crossed! I think it might be a little more appropriate to tell you about a first encounter. I wasn’t really expecting much to happen this night; however, I decided to head out to Frank’s Place Jazz Club. I went to the free club because honestly there are single (or claims of being single) people there who actually will talk or ask you to dance. At the paid portion of Frank’s Elite it ends up being a ton of couples and all smooches which sorry…. I am not that sappy! Anyhow, I was sitting there talking to a some friends who are just great. We were all smiles and laughing and then just when the white undies turn into the white flag of surrender, the message of the night comes along.

I received a rather polite response from a man who was actually wearing a mesh suit and seemed to try to take care of himself as best as possible. I say this because it seems to be rare here as well. No, I am not being snobby, it is just nice to appreciate someone who tries to look nice. The first few comments were a polite hello and a message that he was just looking through my Flickr and liked what he saw but that he had a question for me. He asked… randomly… if I had a shoe fetish. This was by far the most interesting first question that I have received in a long time. As I explained that I was a blogger and sometimes I like to include just a shoe photo… that wasn’t a good enough answer apparently! He then began to explain that my photos were disconcertingly sexy… oh hell, I will just post this and leave this here for you to read….

XXX: the way you take those pics is disconcertingly sexy

Tessa Rosca (tessagrace51): slight foot fetish yourself? lol

XXX: it’s a fair question… the truth is I really don’t know if I do or not. I don’t think I have a typical foot fetish but I do find female feet and legs attractive. I wish I didn’t though

Tessa Rosca (tessagrace51): hm you wish you didn’t? As in you wish that they weren’t female or that you had an attraction to another body part?

XXX: lol I wish I had no reaction to those body parts. Let me give you an example of what I mean…

XXX: your 1st life picture is awesome. It’s very sexy but at the same time it’s not explicitly sexual There is a subtlety to it, which is something missing in a lot of SL photography. I can look at it, make these observations and appreciate it without having any undue reaction. On the other hand some of the pictures in your flickr I feel like I have a disproportionate reaction to. After all they are just pictures of pixels and in many of them you’re wearing more than in your 1st life pic

Tessa Rosca (tessagrace51): that is a very interesting observation. The reason may be that I did not actually take the photo in my first life pic. It was done by a friend. Im not sure what the difference is in the flickr photos as opposed to that one really.

Tessa Rosca (tessagrace51): and here I thought you might just offer to buy me shoes to relieve some of the pressure there lol

XXX: lol

XXX: do you mind if I ask you a purely hypothetical question about that scenario?

Tessa Rosca (tessagrace51): lol go for it

XXX: hypothetically if I had bought you shoes which you were wearing and showing them off for me. If you could tell that you were arousing me, would that be arousing for you?

Tessa Rosca (tessagrace51): hm this is a rather interesting hypothetical

Now, I will stop the conversation here because the rest was just kind of… blah! This was basically the root and ending of the conversation which shouldn’t come as a surprise. I have two take away’s here. First, Do not try to act like your some kind of upstanding guy who just doesn’t do sexual things in SL. I have met… TWO men who actually aren’t interested in things like this. I felt like he was somewhat trying to be shy but come on.. you start off asking a women about a shoe fetish? The second thing that I took away… was that I take more photos of my legs and shoes that I realized. OOPS! Live and learn right?

Well for my first relationship/dating/encounters post I think i went rather well. I might tell you about the guy wanting the sex train later but I needed to start off a little soft. 😛 TOOTLES!

Credits:

Skin: Lara Hurley– Scarlett in dark

Head: TheMeshProject– classic deluxe w/ Scarlett applier

Body: Maitreya– Lara Mesh Body w/ Scarlett applier

Eyes: IKON– Sovereign eyes in Fjord

Hair: TRUTH- Damaris @ The Arcade 

Top: U.Refined- Sassy chained top in teal @ Designer Showcase

Capris: Blueberry– Rolled Cuff Jeans curvy

Shoes: Lybra!- Arlie in natural (high slink add on) @ Designer Showcase

Love and Sacrifice

Love and Sacrifice

What Mothers Day means to me is to acknowledge the love and sacrifice that my mother gave to and for me and then as a mother myself to realize that I will have to give my own sacrifices in time. I wish mothers everywhere a wonderful day and I pray for the continued support that you give because it isn’t easy being a mother. Just something short today in memory… TOOTLES

Credits:

Skin: Lara Hurley– Scarlett in dark

Head: TheMeshProject– classic deluxe w/ Scarlett applier

Body: Maitreya– Lara Mesh Body w/ Scarlett applier

Eyes: IKON– Sovereign eyes in Fjord

Hair: TRUTH– Paola in light browns

Jacket: DE. Boutique- Harley jacket @ Designer Showcase

Dress: Loovus Dzevavor- Mercy dress in berry @ Designer Showcase

Just Another Fast Forward

Just Another Fast Forward

Can I just skip the summer and move into the fall? I know some people may think I am nuts, but the fall is my absolute favorite time of the year. The fact that I was born smack dab in the middle of Fall makes no difference. I like the cooler weather combined with the leaves changing. It puts me in this happy mood. Who doesn’t want to put a lady in a happy mood? I was happy to play around at the Tequilla sim wasting most of my day in this fall setting. If you agree and think you want to fast forward then go grab up the SlackGirl dress at Designer Showcase and head on over there. I can guarantee that with this dress and this sim… you will be in a better mood! TOOTLES

Credits:

Skin: Lara Hurley– Scarlett in dark

Head: TheMeshProject– classic deluxe w/ Scarlett applier

Body: Maitreya– Lara Mesh Body w/ Scarlett applier

Hair: TRUTH– Malea in brown

Hat: Summer hat (discontinued)

Dress: SlackGirl- Jill in warm @ Designer Showcase

Pose: //elephante poses– Dream About Flying pose pack

Sim: Just Another Tequilla Sunrise

Digit Fashion

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Ok, I am attempting to do another Monday Meme from Strawberry Singh’s blog. EVERYONE knows her blog so you probably know what I am talking about. I wanted to do this digits blog because I haven’t had the chance in the past. I have been asked my sizes previously so I figured why not share 🙂

Meme Instructions: Share your avatar’s digits and/or answer the following questions about mesh bodies. If you decide to share your digits, feel free to add your image to the Digits Flickr Group.

  1. Do you currently own a mesh body? If so, do you wear it all the time or just once in a while? If not, skip to the fourth question. –  Of course I have a mesh body! I have ALL the mesh bodies! My one go to body is constantly the Maitreya Lara Mesh Body. It is listed in every single blog that I do because I am slightly obsessed with how amazing it is. If I can’t wear my Maitreya for whatever reason, then I will go to my Belleza Body.
  2. What is your preferred mesh body available on the market right now?– Maitreya: Lara Mesh Body
  3. Have you changed your shape since you started wearing the body? – Of course again! You have to change your shape when you put on a mesh body. Even though using the sliders is possible and wonderful, if you put on the body with your current shape then you are going to look a little funky. I usually suggest starting completely over on you digits if this if the first time your doing a mesh body. It can’t hurt!
  4. How do you feel about mesh bodies in general? – I believe that this is the new SL. If you aren’t in a mesh body you just aren’t with the times. No no, it is ok I am not calling you old or outdated, but I just feel like mesh bodies are the way to go now a days.
  5. What is one thing you would request from designers when it comes to mesh bodies? – I prefer to still wear my slink feet and hands with the Maitreya body. That is something I do because I have way too many shoes that fit slink to change. I wish that the Maitreya appliers that are included would also swap over the slink hands and feet. I get tired of going back and trying to find slink appliers in folders. I just wish more designers would work together to make things easier, not more difficult. Omega right now is the closest we can get and I love it. Just wish it went a step further.

Now for my digits…. I have been told that my curves are nice, but that may just be people being polite lol. You never know because you can’t physically see how sincere someone is. I have two shapes that I swap back and forth between. My one shape I use for mesh clothing. It seems like having my boobies shrunk ends up being what I need to fit into most mesh clothing. I use the second shape when I am naked or in a bikini. A little wider hips and a little bigger boobs but other than that same stuff. So here we go…

 Tessa’s clothed Maitreya Mesh Body Shape made by ME!:

Height- 62

Body Fat- 5

Head Size- 47

Torso Muscles- 34

Breast Size- 49

Arm length- 79

Hand Size- 20

Torso length- 55

Love handles- 25

Belly Size- 6

Leg muscle- 55

Leg length- 60

Hip width- 61

Butt size- 28

Saddle bags- 26

I will spare you the naked avi shape because it really doesn’t work well with mesh clothing. Hope this helps in some kind of way, but I had fun with it 🙂 TOOTLES

Credits:

Skin: Glam Affair– Katra in Jamaica

Body: Maitreya– Lara Mesh Body

Head: TheMeshProject– Classic Deluxe Head

Hair: Phoenix- Luna in light brown @ The Black Fashion Fair

Jewelry: Cae- Burst Collection @ The Black Fashion Fair

Dress: LaVian & C0- All Signs of of Life dress @ Designer Showcase

Shoes: Essenz- Phoenix (slink and maitreya high add on) @ The 100 Block Fashion Fair

Props w/ pose: W. Winx Mainstore- Shaken @ The Pose Fair 2015

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Easter Dress

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As it is Easter weekend, everyone needs to find that cute spring dress to throw on for the occasion. When we were growing up, we would wear these dresses ALL the time on Easter. We even did egg hunts in these dresses. Maybe because our parents spent so much time and money to make us look cute that they wanted pictures of us in the dress all day long. If that is the case then I am more than happy to wear this all day long. Actually, because I haven’t been able to really blog the past 3 days, I have been wearing this the entire time. I have been able to log into SL, but I haven’t been able to do anything but log in to check notices and go buy a few things. 🙂 I will continue to wear this through the weekend of course and if you love this look have a look at the credits and go grab. TOOTLES!

Credits:

Skin: Glam Affair– Katra in Jamaica

Body: Maitreya– Lara Mesh Body 3.0

Head: TheMeshProject– Classic deluxe head

Hair: Clawtooth- LUSH @ Fameshed

Jewelry: Maxi Gossamer- Amelie Painted beads @ Fameshed

Dress: DE. Boutique- Spring fling dress @ Designer Showcase

Shoes: REIGN- Peep Toe Wedges (medium slink add on) @ Fameshed 

Pose: Le Poppycock– Afterglow

Keeping you up to date

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I have been extremely busy in real life, but I wanted to take a chance to let you know a few things. First off, The Skin Fair begins tomorrow. I have already shown you a beautiful Tess skin by Belleza in my previous post, but now I want to show you Doretta. I am absolutely in love with this skin from Pink Acid. There are very few TMP mesh head appliers that I actually like, but this one has become the top of my list. This skin is available in five different shades. The next big thing to know is that Soonsiki has moved and now has a new fatpack out as a group gift. The hair above is called Diamond and I love the wave. My hair does this naturally when its humid so I just had to grab it. Last but certainly not least, Designer Showcase is still going on for the month of March. I haven’t really been around to blog for this event at the beginning of the month. Some cute stuff this round that needs to be seen. Great prices as well! I think that is all for now so enjoy 🙂 TOOTLES

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Credits:

Skin: Pink Acid- Doretta in Butterscotch @ The Skin Fair (begins March 13th)

Body: Maitreya– Lara Mesh Body

Head: TheMeshProject– Classic Deluxe head

Hair: Soonsiki– Diamond (New store location and free group gift)

Outfit: DE. Boutique- Adela Dress @ Designer Showcase

Close Your Eyes and Make A Wish

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I wish I may, I wish I might, let me tell you what I wish tonight… I wish for a cluttered home to come home to. I wish for a hot cup of coffee on a rainy night matched with a good book. I wish for happiness in the moments when I want to cry, and I wish that others would approach with a tender touch instead of quick to judge or comment. I wish that objects rez when you need them to, and I wish that all my favorite stores go on sale all at the same time. Since I will need to wait for these wishes to come true, I decided to shop at events instead. The Skin Fair, Collabor88, and Designer Showcase were all on my hit list and coupled with some other event items, I was able to make my little corner of wishes. I hope you enjoy these items as much as I have.

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Credits:

Skin: Belleza- Tess in Sunkissed (extra freckles worn and included) @ The Skin Fair (starts March 13th)

Shape: My own

Body: Belleza– Venus mesh body

Hair: Exile- Touch so warm @ Collabor88 

Eyes: IKON– Charm Eyes in Industrial

Necklace: Maxi Gossamer- Secret Love Letter Locket @ Collabor88 

Outfit: Loovus- Tribeca Romper in dusk @ Designer Showcase

Chair: Trompe Loeil- Audrey’s Chair @ Collabor88

Rug: junk.- round boho rug in turquoise @ Uber

Books: revival- booke piles and candles @ Fameshed 

Coffee and Donuts: Second Spaces- Cooper Desk accessories @ Collabor88 

Photos: tarte.- boho collection wall art @ Uber

Table: Trompe Loeil- Audrey’s Wood Table @ Collabor88 

House:Trompe Loeil- Palmer Lodge @ Collabor88 

Wedding Season

2.7.15.1On February 6th I married one of my best friends in SL… I can honestly say was the best decision I have made. We know how SL is always a revolving door where people will come and go and some fit and some do not. We sometimes hope that things work the way we would like and we try to force things into place. I have done this countless times because I am such a control freak on how I want an outcome to be. I can easily admit my flaws, which I guess is a good thing, but it sometimes makes it hard to see the good parts as well. Tony brings out those good parts in me. He knows the right moment to make me laugh and smile. As he knows… sometimes I want to smack the back of his head, but I think that makes us normal. I really like this kind of normal.

I had someone make a comment this past week about some certain situations going on and it kind of prompt me to make this statement… Just because sometimes things look rocky or because you might have a fight about which couch to use in your SL living room… it doesn’t mean that things will never work and you should just give up. Giving up may be what you like to do, but it certainly isn’t mine. Everyone has flaws, but its about embracing those and loving them anyway. That includes the person who made these statements in the first place.Just because you see something that may not be how you feel or would react, it doesn’t mean that everyone will react to it the same as you. That is the good part about SL… we are all different!

No, this is not my wedding dress since we didn’t have a wedding, but it is a fabulous find that happened to come at the right time. Maybe these designers had this in mind since I believe it is the peak of wedding season in SL. Valentines does seem to make people want to declare their love and what better way than a wedding. You can pick up this headpiece and gown both at Designer Showcase. The whole place is filled with things to complete any look you might desire for Valentines. TOOTLES

Credits:

Skin: Lara Hurley– Fae (Maitreya applier)

Body: Maitreya– Lara Mesh Body

Head: TheMeshProject– Classic Deluxe w/ the shops skin

Hair: Hair Day– Heather

Headpiece: Snowpaws- Floral Netted Veil @ Designer Showcase

Gown: !:Lybra:! Katherine gown @ Designer Showcase

Roses are Red

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Roses are red

Violets are Blue

Love never crossed my mind

Till the day I met you! ❤

Valentines is around the corner and no better place to find your outfit for your special someone than at Designer Showcase. I was impressed with all of the designs and will show more later. Please take a tp and see for yourself. By all means, dont wait on me! TOOTLES

Credits:

Skin: Lara Hurley– Fae

Body: Maitreya– Lara Mesh Body

Head: The Mesh Project– Classic deluxe head

Eyeshadow: SlackGirl- LetsGo eyeshadow with TMP applier

Hair: Magika– Mint

Outfit: DE. Boutique- Love me like you do top and skirt @ Designer Showcase