Creating Me

Creating Me

Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.

George Bernard Shaw

Every person thinks long and hard about who they want to be here in SL. A lot of people wear the style they have in RL or they are somewhere around that area. Maybe the style you want in RL but you don’t quite have. I struggle with my actual style in SL. I think mainly because I blog and I change who I am all the time based on what I need to show off or want to show off. The other issue is that I like so much it is hard to just pick something. I did this post because this is kinda just my style. I like the soft and sweet look, but I do have a really rough edge and I believe the spikes on the clothes and the tattoos show that as well. It was kinda just… ME! Whatever your style might be it is more important about how you got to that point. What makes up you besides just what is on the outside. It is so important to get to know the people you are around other than just how they look or dress. Words for thought on a late Friday night 🙂 TOOTLES

Credits:

Skin: AIMI Skins– Diane skin in Almond

Body: Maitreya– Lara Mesh Body

Eyes: IKON– Sovereign eyes in Fjord

Hairpiece: Glam Affair- Romantic Flowers 2 @ Uber

Hair: Entwinded- Kiara in dark brown @ The Secret Affair

Top: Foxes- Dolly top in white @ Collabor88

Shorts: Foxes- Dolly shorts in duckegg @ Collabor88

Rings: Cae- Phases rings

Tattoo: Reckless- Haze faded @ Uber

Indian Giver

Indian Giver

What else is Second Life good for if not for being something totally different than what it was meant for. I wanted to show off this totally awesome set by FINESMITH which I had a blast styling because I had this wild feel with it. Besides just doing this photo I had a lot on my mind. I thought about users and abusers in SL. Random maybe? People who get what they want from a person and then they are no where in sight after that. What creates people like this? I guess it is so easy to do this in SL and mostly as a blogger or photographer I kind of feel this way. I have felt this way on a personal level, but also as a professional in SL. I like to think that I try to do as much as I can for others while I tend to get taken advantage of on this. Maybe this is a huge fault, but if I don’t give everything to something I care for then what is the point of doing it? Just a side note, but have a fabulous rest of your night! TOOTLES

Credits:

Head: LeLutka– Stella mesh head

Body: Maitreya– Lara Mesh Body

Stella Applier: Glam Affair– Avril applier in Jamaica @ Uber

Hair: TRUTH- Ishya @ Uber

Jewelry: FINESMITH– Karma set

What You See

What you see is what you get

I was planning on taking a small break from blogging, but I think I was just kidding myself. I think I have posted pretty much every day for the last month and I am really needing a break from the constant posts, so I am going to just be posting every other day now for a little bit till I am caught up. I took yesterday to set up my garden in SecondLife. This is just a photo of me lounging, but I felt I needed to show off a few of the new items out. My new Stella appliers which I am in LOVE with the freckles, the new FINESMITH group gift, and the new Essenz heels which are so sexy with the sheer parts that I had to buy every color there. Just a small photo to show I haven’t forgotten about all of you, but I have been busy 🙂 Photos of the place will be coming I promise! TOOTLES

Credits:

Head: LeLutka– Stella mesh head

Body: Maitreya– Lara Mesh Body

Stella Applier: Glam Affair– Avril applier in Jamaica @ Uber

Hair: Catwa– Aimee hair

Necklace: FINESMITH– Big necklace in cream *group gift*

Dress: Baiastice– Claudette dress in wine

Shoes: Essenz- Sicily (high slink or maitreya add on) @ My Attic at the Deck

Couch: Cheeky Pea– Priyanka Daybed

Kissed by the Sun

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Happy Anniversary to We ❤ RP! This month We ❤ RP turns two and this means gifts for everyone! Amazing unique roleplay designs with gifts at a few of the designers spots. You will not be disappointed and I bought probably WAY too much. Will take me more than just May to get through all of the items. Happy shopping this month and don’t forget to stop by! TOOTLES

Credits:

Skin: Glam Affair– Stella Polar Fantasy Line @ We ❤ RP

Head- Lelutka– Stella mesh head

Body- Maitreya– Lara Mesh Body (Free Fantasy appliers for Glam Affair @ We ❤ RP

Hair: Tableau Vivant- Cersei in Light Browns @ We ❤ RP

Headpiece: Fawny- Sweet Rose Wreath in gold @ We ❤ RP

Necklace: Modish- Thalia necklace in sand @ We ❤ RP

Dress: Dead Dollz- Ariadne’s dress in white @ We ❤ RP

Bracers: The Forge- Plaid Bracers in gold @ We ❤ RP

Pose: Apple Spice– Against the wall pose

Lamp: noctis- swamp wanderers standing lamp @ We ❤ RP

Bench: noctis- swamp wanderers bench @ We ❤ RP

Well and bassin: 22769 ~ bauwerk- The little village well and water basin @ We ❤ RP

Dark Attitude

Dark Attitude

I think this photo kind of speaks for itself here. I am in a mood and I think it is a little mysterious and dark. Who knows why really but I am having a blast with it 🙂 Too many fairs are feeding my dark side at the moment, so maybe it can feed yours as well. TOOTLES!

Credits:

Skin: Glam Affair– Stella in Jamaica

Head- Lelutka– Stella mesh head

Body- Maitreya– Lara Mesh Body

Hair: adoness- loki in brown @ The Dark Style Fair 2

Body suit: IAF- Latex Leotard in red @ The Garage Designer Fair

Vest: IAF- Fur vest in black @ The Garage Designer Fair

Bag: IAF- Leather bag in grey @ The Garage Designer Fair

Tattoo: Identity Body Shop- Brutal Wave faded @ The Garage Designer Fair

Shoes: Riske- Bloodletter heels (high slink add on) @ The Dark Style Fair 2

Pose: Dyer Maker– bag poses set

What time is it?

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It’s Happy Hour!!! or as I like to call it, shopping hour! more shopping done at Uber which just opened up on the 25th of April. Neon and retro are the cool awesome items you can find. Enjoy… TOOTLES!

Credits:

Skin: Lara Hurley– Scarlett in dark

Head: TheMeshProject– classic deluxe w/ Scarlett applier

Body: Maitreya– Lara Mesh Body w/ Scarlett applier

Hair: Truth- Sukie in light brown @ Uber

Sunglasses- Izzie’s- Miami Neon sunglasses in mint @ Uber

Necklace- Glam Affair- Keane Statement necklace @ Uber

Dress- tres blah- Cutout skater dress in coral @ Uber

Sign- Trompe Loeil- Neon bar sign Happy Hour @ Uber

Pose- Bounce This Poses– Mega pack of poses

Digit Fashion

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Ok, I am attempting to do another Monday Meme from Strawberry Singh’s blog. EVERYONE knows her blog so you probably know what I am talking about. I wanted to do this digits blog because I haven’t had the chance in the past. I have been asked my sizes previously so I figured why not share 🙂

Meme Instructions: Share your avatar’s digits and/or answer the following questions about mesh bodies. If you decide to share your digits, feel free to add your image to the Digits Flickr Group.

  1. Do you currently own a mesh body? If so, do you wear it all the time or just once in a while? If not, skip to the fourth question. –  Of course I have a mesh body! I have ALL the mesh bodies! My one go to body is constantly the Maitreya Lara Mesh Body. It is listed in every single blog that I do because I am slightly obsessed with how amazing it is. If I can’t wear my Maitreya for whatever reason, then I will go to my Belleza Body.
  2. What is your preferred mesh body available on the market right now?– Maitreya: Lara Mesh Body
  3. Have you changed your shape since you started wearing the body? – Of course again! You have to change your shape when you put on a mesh body. Even though using the sliders is possible and wonderful, if you put on the body with your current shape then you are going to look a little funky. I usually suggest starting completely over on you digits if this if the first time your doing a mesh body. It can’t hurt!
  4. How do you feel about mesh bodies in general? – I believe that this is the new SL. If you aren’t in a mesh body you just aren’t with the times. No no, it is ok I am not calling you old or outdated, but I just feel like mesh bodies are the way to go now a days.
  5. What is one thing you would request from designers when it comes to mesh bodies? – I prefer to still wear my slink feet and hands with the Maitreya body. That is something I do because I have way too many shoes that fit slink to change. I wish that the Maitreya appliers that are included would also swap over the slink hands and feet. I get tired of going back and trying to find slink appliers in folders. I just wish more designers would work together to make things easier, not more difficult. Omega right now is the closest we can get and I love it. Just wish it went a step further.

Now for my digits…. I have been told that my curves are nice, but that may just be people being polite lol. You never know because you can’t physically see how sincere someone is. I have two shapes that I swap back and forth between. My one shape I use for mesh clothing. It seems like having my boobies shrunk ends up being what I need to fit into most mesh clothing. I use the second shape when I am naked or in a bikini. A little wider hips and a little bigger boobs but other than that same stuff. So here we go…

 Tessa’s clothed Maitreya Mesh Body Shape made by ME!:

Height- 62

Body Fat- 5

Head Size- 47

Torso Muscles- 34

Breast Size- 49

Arm length- 79

Hand Size- 20

Torso length- 55

Love handles- 25

Belly Size- 6

Leg muscle- 55

Leg length- 60

Hip width- 61

Butt size- 28

Saddle bags- 26

I will spare you the naked avi shape because it really doesn’t work well with mesh clothing. Hope this helps in some kind of way, but I had fun with it 🙂 TOOTLES

Credits:

Skin: Glam Affair– Katra in Jamaica

Body: Maitreya– Lara Mesh Body

Head: TheMeshProject– Classic Deluxe Head

Hair: Phoenix- Luna in light brown @ The Black Fashion Fair

Jewelry: Cae- Burst Collection @ The Black Fashion Fair

Dress: LaVian & C0- All Signs of of Life dress @ Designer Showcase

Shoes: Essenz- Phoenix (slink and maitreya high add on) @ The 100 Block Fashion Fair

Props w/ pose: W. Winx Mainstore- Shaken @ The Pose Fair 2015

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Spring Garden Party

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I have gotten to where I just usually write something about myself or whatever I am doing and I don’t really talk much about the fashion or the designers or anything like that. Mainly because I feel like its mostly self explanatory in the credits, but sometimes I have to add a little bit which is what I want to do today. Dead Dollz has released her full Spring Collection for Ferosh and I am thrilled to pieces. This is just one dress out of so many! I suggest you take the TP below which will take you to the Ferosh Dead Dollz tent. You can also view some of photos on the Dead Dollz website before you TP if you want to prepare those lindens! Well worth it for fabulous made clothes.

Also, I rarely put what pose I use or what sim I end up taking my photos on. Sometimes I enjoy building my own sets at home and the poses are discontinued so I don’t usually like to post these types of things, but today was a little different. I had a chance to go through the full Pose Fair. It took me over an hour because… well… I was a little bit in hog heaven here. I got so much that it now has its own folder in my inventory. 🙂 Of course this fair plus the seasons story (fabulous hair with color changing flowers from D!va) will not last forever… SO don’t procrastinate. No one likes to miss out on some style! TOOTLES

Credits:

Skin: Glam Affair– Katra in Jamaica

Body: Maitreya– Lara Mesh Body

Head: TheMeshProject– Classic Deluxe Head

Hair: D!va- Kelly in Citrine @ The Seasons Story

Dress: Dead Dollz– Voulez Vous? in white/blue

Pose: Bounce This Poses- mega pack @ The Pose Fair 2015

Sim: Beautiful 4 Seasons

Sticks and Stones

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I have wanted to do Berry’s Monday Memes and make them something that is part of my blog. Unfortunately RL has stepped in and it seems I am always jammed with things to do on Tuesday and Wednesday that prevent me from doing them and then by the time I remember, another Meme was posted and so on. This week is certainly no different; however, this specific subject is something that is very important to me. You can sum this up by just saying cyber bully.

With technology being the most used thing by people now a days, it is hard to imagine that bullying wouldn’t dip its ugly paws into peoples computers, phones, and tablets. I watched a show on the lifetime channel (yes, they are mostly cheesy) about a girl who was different. She wasn’t like most girls in her school and a group of girls started to call her a witch. They not only started teasing her and pushing her around at school but they went as far as to gather up her personal information such as her phone number and email address and began to send her messages there as well. The show eventually came to the part where they told her if she hated herself so much she should do them a favor and kill herself. She did just that.

It blows my mind how people can think that there horrible ugly comments to others here doesn’t have an affect on the person that you say them to. I hear others say “Oh, this is just a game, not like it’s real or anything.” So because you think this game isn’t real that gives you a right to be cruel and hateful and drag other people down some depressed road that your on? NO, it certainly does not. Congratulations if you feel like nothing ever said to you or about you on the internet doesn’t sting just a little. Sometimes for people it stings a lot. There is really only so much someone can take before it does begin to wear on the person every time they open up their phones or computers.

My own personal story is the reason I choose to take some time to write about this. I know another meme is coming, but this issue is so important to myself that I just needed to get it out there. I won’t be shaming the people who have bullied me; however, they know exactly who they are. If they are reading this then I hope maybe it opens up their eyes and they do not do these things to others. You may be “anonymous” on your end, but I think sometimes the WHO part of what is said doesn’t really matter when it comes down to WHAT is said. So here is my Monday Meme which Strawberry covered on her post here… Please feel free to share your story as well and maybe your story can make a difference for someone else.

Meme instructions: Answer the following questions either on your own blog, in the comments of this post or on any social platform.

  1. Have you ever been subjected to mean comments online by strangers? If not, then skip to question #5. Who hasn’t? I think there are different levels of mean comments. There is the comment that your look is ugly. That may sting a little on the confidence side of things. There are also personal attacks from people who you have grown close to. Those people could be from your RL or friends you have made online like in SL.
  2. How did you respond to them? I think most people have different responses. My first response is always to take up for myself. I think this was learned growing up because I have been bullied most of my life. I am extremely fair skinned with freckles and I have red hair. Now that I am older, I see that I am unique and I like it. Growing up in elementary school when the boys would call me weird and carrot top daily and pull pranks on me caused me to fight back. I would find anything to say back to them just to make it stop and draw attention away. Looking back that is probably the reason I smart off still and don’t take responses very well. My SL experience was one that I will never forget and something completely shocking for me. Different from RL bullying and my first ever cyber bully encounter.
  3. How did they make you feel? Alone. Isolation is probably the worse feeling and you may not physically be alone, but if they can make you feel that way then they have won. They have achieved their goal in making you miserable. A lot of people come to SL because they are alone or something has caused them not to be able to achieve what they have wanted in RL. Bored would also be a good reason. I think the feelings really are subject to what exactly happened to you. Sometimes a feeling of disgust would be there… disgusted that people had to act this way so that they could be happy. Then I would eventually just feel sorry that these people were so miserable they had to try to make others feel that way. They say that they feel great and are always happy, but you see their true ugly colors come out eventually. The anonymous feeling of being happy is fake. Remember that! Your happy because no one knows the truth? You fake being friendly to peoples faces because that is the fake person you have built here when in truth you talk about them to your close friends like they are garbage. I think I will stop here because the feelings really only get worse. I have really been working a lot lately with trying to not let things get to me. So far, I have made a lot of improvements, but I do have quite a ways to go. It isn’t easy when you wear your feelings on your sleeve.
  4. Can you share some of the mean comments you’ve received and your thoughts on them? I think mean comments are a way of life on SL. People left their manners at the log in screen. The worse thing that has happened to me in SL would have to be fake IMs being made and shared. Things that I never said or did being shared from someone that they were supposedly said to. At this time, I didn’t log my IMs. I certainly didn’t want things stored on my computer so I just didn’t. I didn’t have proof that these IMs weren’t actually written by me because I didn’t save them. I think this was probably the worse case of bullying I have had. I had several people who I was so close to just drop me because of these IMs. IMs that I didn’t say or write. Looking back now, I see that it was misery that caused this. Someone who just couldn’t be happy unless someone was suffering. I was next on the list I guess. From that point on I have logged every single IM that I have gotten. They get cleared every 6 months. I get this fear like things will come back to haunt me after this. As for other comments, I try not to listen to them. I get told my photos suck and my blog is horrible and I have no style. I guess those things affect me to a point, but those are the things I am working on forgetting. After all, I don’t blog for others and I don’t log into SL for others.
  5. Have you ever ridiculed or negatively commented on someone else’s work, actions or personality with the intention to hurt them?  I remember a saying that I grew up with. I wanted to fight back, but I would always remember being told that I should never point out someone else’s stick in their eye when I have a beam in my own. Basically don’t judge others because you are just as bad if you really look at yourself. I also find myself judging peoples works and comparing my own and the fact that I don’t feel my work is good enough. Yeah yeah, I have heard the whole believe in yourself comments, but I honestly don’t think your human if you haven’t doubted yourself at least once on something. I wouldn’t say I look at others works in a negative light but just my own. I always see someones idea and think about how awesome that was or hate that I didn’t think of it earlier on my own. Kudos to people and their creativity.

I think the take away from all of this is basically be polite and nice to others. What is the point and spreading around negative hate all the time? I look at my own stories about what people have said or done to me and I try to never want to hurt others like it has been done to me. For those people who were rude and horrible in the past, you are certainly forgiven but never forgotten. You cause me to look at SL in a completely different way. The trust I once gave to people so easily and freely for so long here is gone. The one thing I do think you for is for giving me strength. The strength to look past the ugly side and continue to do what I love regardless of what you say or think. Sorry for the long rant, but I felt it just needed to be out there! TOOTLES

Credits:

Skin: Glam Affair– Katra

Body: Maitreya– Lara Mesh Body

Head: TheMeshProject– Classic Deluxe

Hair: Ayashi- Saiko hair @ Rock Attitude Fashion Fair 2

Tattoos: DATUM- Dusk to Down @ Rock Attitude Fashion Fair 2

Dress: The Doll House- Reble Dress @ Rock Attitude Fashion Fair 2

Easter Dress

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As it is Easter weekend, everyone needs to find that cute spring dress to throw on for the occasion. When we were growing up, we would wear these dresses ALL the time on Easter. We even did egg hunts in these dresses. Maybe because our parents spent so much time and money to make us look cute that they wanted pictures of us in the dress all day long. If that is the case then I am more than happy to wear this all day long. Actually, because I haven’t been able to really blog the past 3 days, I have been wearing this the entire time. I have been able to log into SL, but I haven’t been able to do anything but log in to check notices and go buy a few things. 🙂 I will continue to wear this through the weekend of course and if you love this look have a look at the credits and go grab. TOOTLES!

Credits:

Skin: Glam Affair– Katra in Jamaica

Body: Maitreya– Lara Mesh Body 3.0

Head: TheMeshProject– Classic deluxe head

Hair: Clawtooth- LUSH @ Fameshed

Jewelry: Maxi Gossamer- Amelie Painted beads @ Fameshed

Dress: DE. Boutique- Spring fling dress @ Designer Showcase

Shoes: REIGN- Peep Toe Wedges (medium slink add on) @ Fameshed 

Pose: Le Poppycock– Afterglow