My Escape

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This past week and weekend have been a slight strain for myself. I have been having to write this paper for one of my law classes on any topic of choice. Picking my topic wasn’t a hard choice, because I wanted something that had a ton of meaning for me and something that I could really dive into and put feeling behind. I picked Adoption Law… because I am adopted as well. I had to mostly focus on the law portions of this while adding in my own personal opinion. I honestly can’t help that my own personal opinion is so bias in this situation. Maybe picking a topic so close to home was a bad idea in this case. I spent half the paper crying. Why? I have no idea! Maybe just the overwhelming feeling hoping that other kids get the outcome that I had… or maybe I spent some of the time mourning a life that I might have had. It is a very strange feeling to be so conflicted in this. Adoption isn’t hard for me to talk about and it isn’t even hard for me to talk about what I do know about my birth parents. I often wonder just what traits I picked up from them. I even have been curious when I have met people in world if just maybe there was some relationship there to my biological family. I believe it is natural to question, but I have been asked if I want to find my birth family and the answer is always a large NO! I was given away for a reason… That reason is what keeps me from going to look. It just was a very sad and confusing weekend on top of having to write this rather large paper and create a power point. I just hope that I don’t break out into tears during my presentation in class. I have worked for years with support groups for adoptees and haven’t broken out in tears yet… so here’s to hoping!

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My escape from these thoughts has always been SL. I think this is why I do spend a lot of alone time in SL. It is hard to feel like you belong when you have never felt that before. I think that is why most log in to SL. To feel something or do something that they can’t in RL. I am grateful to be able to log in and then write about things that I feel or stuff that I go through. It is probably a little better than walking right up to a complete stranger and spilling your guts than to have people walk up to you and wait to read what your going to put out there. Maybe that is why it has taken me so long to write something like this about myself. Anyway…. I am just grateful to have a distraction at this point. Cosmopolitan Sales Room started yesterday and so I went about with my shopping therapy, which turns out to be much cheaper in SL than if I participated in this in RL. Enjoy your new round of Cosmo and hope to see you out shopping! I apologize for my crazy rant… I really should post a warning somewhere when you open my blog that there may be more information than one cares to know! TOOTLES

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 Credits:

Skin– Glam Affair- Cleo in Jamaica

Eyes– IKON- Hope Eyes in Nymph

Hair– MINA- Jaana hair in pastels @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room

Top– NS::- Tank top and Cardigan @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room

Pants– coldLogic- Jeggings in seyfried black

Shoes– HOLLYHOOD- Xaviera heels in white (slink high add on) @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room

Boat w/poses– [we’re CLOSED]- Row boat w/ dark grey drape @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room

Something To Cheer About

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Football season started this past weekend!!! I am so excited because this is my season to veg out on my couch and watch every game that I possibly can on my TV. I am a HUGE Alabama fan and I am super hyped about the new playoff system. Yes, most blogs are read by women… but I know quite a few women who are just as big of a football fan as I am. Any predictions this year? I predict I will be shopping when not watching football and there are some great finds going on. Cosmopolitan has pretty much everything you can want… and then L.Warwick has put out these fabulous flat durable shoes at Uber. Do not look at me strange if I start breaking out into a cheer in the middle of stores because I am just that excited… TOOTLES

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Credits:

Skin– .::WOW Skins::.- Eshe in Dark Tan w/appliers @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room

Eyes– [Buzz]- Crystal Eye in Ice

Hair– [RA]- Jane V2 @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room

Outfit and glasses– NS::- Sport Gym outfit (comes with sneakers and bag not pictured) @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room 

Shoes– [L.Warwick]- Sawtooth Flats in Slate @ UBER

Pose– {NanTra}- Cheer-ocracy @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room

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Hand Me A Cold One

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It is hot… No lie! I have these weird thought processes that lead me to my final conclusion on things. This outfit reminded me of how freaking hot it is this summer. I would pull my hair up and wear some cute summer easy clothing. I then thought about the summer lovin song on Grease. Yes, probably strange! Then I had a rather funny conversation today about not flirting with someone who might not be in your “league” This person knows who they are. All of these things to me relate. Maybe strange, but it lead me to wonder why exactly do we feel like we are not worthy of things? We always downplay our own worth to ourselves when others see us as something wonderful and brilliant. This feeling can cause people to do anything from not going for a job you want or not flirting with someone who you might like. The confidence level falls with these thoughts and sometimes it is nice to have that pick me up with a compliment or a flirt. How many of you have done this? I have certainly been guilty of not applying for a blogger job because I felt I just wasn’t good enough. I have also not flirted or even noticed a flirt because I felt I wasn’t really in someones league. It is one thing to tell yourself these things sometimes and it is another to really sit back and think about how many times you might put yourself down or downplay your abilities or worth. This really has nothing to do with this amazing outfit I am bringing you, but it was just on my mind. 🙂 Run over to Cosmopolitan Sales Room. This outfit you see here can all be found there. Well worth the trip plus so many other amazing designs it is really hard to pick and choose what to show yall! Go take a look for yourself 🙂 TOOTLES

Credits:

Skin– Lara Hurley – Ivy in natural tan

Body: Slink- Physique Mesh Body

Eyes– [Buzz]- Crystal Eyes in Ice

Hair– ! Sugarsmack !- Bette With Love in Red Hots @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room

Top– -SSW- – Summernight Tanktop @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room

Pants– NS::- Boom Boom Carpis @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room

Shoes– -SSW- – OMGSH Pumps in red (Slink high add on) @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room

Tattoo– Letis Tattoo- Tau Puppis (Slink Physique Hud)

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Hardcore Princess

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I have taken a switch! I am in a more hard cord mood. Yeah I am not really a hard core kind of person or even a more rocker kind of person, but I am tired of being the sweet well put together person everyone sees all the time. I do have more of an edgier side. I have let other people dictate my style and have been told “that’s not you” by several people when I have decided to go on the darker side of SL. I think this is why SL is here… so that we can have an outlet for what we are feeling at the time. Well I can tell you.. you will be seeing me a tad bit different in the upcoming weeks. Be prepared!!! It may come as a slight shock 🙂 TOOTLES

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Credits:

Skin– :Modish: – Nyva skin in Honey

EyesIKON– Spectral Eyes in Nymph

Hair– *~*Damselfly*~*- Bradelle Mesh Hair @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room

Jacket– NS::- Animal Print Zebra Jacket @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room

Pants– ALYCE- Skinny Pants @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room

Tattoo- *HelloMyDeer*- Kado Tattoo @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room

Shoes– *PROMAGIC*- Pencil Shoes (Slink High Add on) @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room

Poses- {Nantra}- Purple Rain @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room

Cute Is As Cute Does

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You can only have that rough outer image for so long… then that girly girl comes out and people look at you weird. That is exactly the reaction I got with this outfit… BUT I do love it! My bow is by .:Glow Designs:. and comes in many styles. I love polka dots so of course that is what I picked. This shirt just sets the cute girl tone for me. NS:: has created this Monkey sweater and isn’t it just adorable? I remember growing up and having something kind of similar and it was one of my favorite shirts. Yes, I was a funky child! Do not fear! This sweater also comes in different colors with a kitty and a panda. Come down to the Cosmopolitan Sales room. These items are only here for one more week! TOOTLES