My Escape

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This past week and weekend have been a slight strain for myself. I have been having to write this paper for one of my law classes on any topic of choice. Picking my topic wasn’t a hard choice, because I wanted something that had a ton of meaning for me and something that I could really dive into and put feeling behind. I picked Adoption Law… because I am adopted as well. I had to mostly focus on the law portions of this while adding in my own personal opinion. I honestly can’t help that my own personal opinion is so bias in this situation. Maybe picking a topic so close to home was a bad idea in this case. I spent half the paper crying. Why? I have no idea! Maybe just the overwhelming feeling hoping that other kids get the outcome that I had… or maybe I spent some of the time mourning a life that I might have had. It is a very strange feeling to be so conflicted in this. Adoption isn’t hard for me to talk about and it isn’t even hard for me to talk about what I do know about my birth parents. I often wonder just what traits I picked up from them. I even have been curious when I have met people in world if just maybe there was some relationship there to my biological family. I believe it is natural to question, but I have been asked if I want to find my birth family and the answer is always a large NO! I was given away for a reason… That reason is what keeps me from going to look. It just was a very sad and confusing weekend on top of having to write this rather large paper and create a power point. I just hope that I don’t break out into tears during my presentation in class. I have worked for years with support groups for adoptees and haven’t broken out in tears yet… so here’s to hoping!

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My escape from these thoughts has always been SL. I think this is why I do spend a lot of alone time in SL. It is hard to feel like you belong when you have never felt that before. I think that is why most log in to SL. To feel something or do something that they can’t in RL. I am grateful to be able to log in and then write about things that I feel or stuff that I go through. It is probably a little better than walking right up to a complete stranger and spilling your guts than to have people walk up to you and wait to read what your going to put out there. Maybe that is why it has taken me so long to write something like this about myself. Anyway…. I am just grateful to have a distraction at this point. Cosmopolitan Sales Room started yesterday and so I went about with my shopping therapy, which turns out to be much cheaper in SL than if I participated in this in RL. Enjoy your new round of Cosmo and hope to see you out shopping! I apologize for my crazy rant… I really should post a warning somewhere when you open my blog that there may be more information than one cares to know! TOOTLES

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 Credits:

Skin– Glam Affair- Cleo in Jamaica

Eyes– IKON- Hope Eyes in Nymph

Hair– MINA- Jaana hair in pastels @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room

Top– NS::- Tank top and Cardigan @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room

Pants– coldLogic- Jeggings in seyfried black

Shoes– HOLLYHOOD- Xaviera heels in white (slink high add on) @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room

Boat w/poses– [we’re CLOSED]- Row boat w/ dark grey drape @ Cosmopolitan Sales Room

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5 thoughts on “My Escape

  1. Imagine the most confident person in the room In the nude while you do your presentation …well then you may have to worry about giggling. Realistically you probably are the most confident person in the room ..dont imagine yourself nude it may complicate the presentation …umm never mind lol Good luck : )

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